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Feb. 24th, 2015

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Truth be told, I'm a tad bit not used to this feeling.

To feeling so loved; to be called 'beautiful' instead of 'pretty' or 'hot' (not like I get called those, even; but you get my drift). To be looked at in the eye and be told that I cut myself short, and be constantly reminded that I'm beautiful... That is something that touches me deeper than you would probably ever guess and understand. Because it does wonders to someone who has been led to believe her entire life that she is 'ugly', 'fat', 'useless', 'not-trying-hard enough', and 'stupid'.

For the first time, I understand what this quote means:

Someday, someone will walk into your life and make you realize why it never worked out with anyone else.

I've been complaining all my life about how I had the worst luck in the relationship department; of course, that isn't to say that I don't appreciate what each relationship taught me, but I finally understand. I have been 'filtering' through (for lack of better word)  all this while. And though I may not see it then, I see it now. I'm thankful that it hadn't worked out with anyone else. (No offense y'all.)

For the first time in my life, I also felt what it was like to cry happy tears, instead of just sad ones. It was a weird feeling the first time; the only times I cried were due to negativity before this. Of course I knew that there were both happy and sad crying, but personally I had always associated crying with that heavy feeling in your bones and that ache in your heart. Of course I did; it was all I knew. It was a foreign feeling to be crying; yet feeling so light and weightless on the inside. I remember my first thought as I wept after receiving your parcel from the post office: 'so this is how it feels like to be crying happy tears'. In all my 26-ish years, I finally know how it feels like because of you.

I have always dreamt of the typical boy-turns-up-and-surprises-girl-at-her-doorstep-when-she-least-expects-it scene (who hasn't eh?). And 2 nights ago, that was exactly what you did.

... although, the surprise was kinda leaked out the day before by Usha & Michael.... xD Oh, and Billy too, now that I think about it. =p

The feeling of hearing the doorbell and swiping the curtains aside only to see you standing outside the gate with a smile... is something I won't soon forget, and you have no idea how much that means to me.

And to think... how you cleverly avoided and dodged my questions about whether you would be coming back... you sneaky little bugger. ;p

And of course, there's that attractiveness when you get protective, not possessive. You do not hesitate to put your arms around me or hug me in public, and even in front of the others.

You send me gifts all the way from where you are, just because you 'think I'd like it'.

SGA, thank you, honestly, from the bottom of my heart. <3


May. 28th, 2011

I Just Adopted a Puricute! ^^ Yay~

Cute Purikura Online cute

Jan. 9th, 2011


 Ok, is it me or is kpop_captionz spammed with pornographic material?? =_="

Nov. 29th, 2010

Check out the #CelcomBiz Promo for the Celcom BB Bold 9780 and BB Torch 9800 today! I like~ ;D

I've been wanting to get myself a BB for a while now.. Hmm.. ;)


Nov. 6th, 2010

Memories of You.

Even as I holiday in Genting, so many things remind me of you. Your name seems to pop up everywhere I look, making my heart ache that much more; making my heart that much more restless.

I call you everyday because I have to hear your voice. Although I whine/complain that I have to be the one to call you everytime now, I don't mind calling if it means I can talk to you. Which is also why, don't care where I am, I would be happy to talk to  you. Even if I"m outside, with my friends, with my family, etc. Whenever I see your name when my phone rings, I smile from ear to ear.

I know you probably don't feel it as much as I do; I think you can go on for days without contacting me if you wanted to. And trust me, sometimes I wish I wouldn't get so attached so easily; fall so hard for someone, because it hurts to feel that your other half is perfectly fine and not missing you, when you, on the other hand, are restless from the lack of contact.

Maybe I was brought up in that manner, but sometimes, it would be nice if you could just tell me where I stand, in your heart maybe? I've told you exactly how I feel about you; how you make me feel.
Because to be very honest, I think of you the moment I wake up till the moment I go to bed. And I'm not kidding. Even when I go to bed I think of you, because I'll be hugging your pillow.
 Sure, I'm enjoying myself with my friends and keeping myself occupied with activities. But just because I'm busy and occupied, doesn't mean I can't still think of you. Take Genting for example. Behind our hotel, there is this 'park', which has this gorgeous view of Genting. We went there on our first night, and the moment I saw the view; the lights scattered below, twinkling in the dark, I thought of you. I thought of that time you took me to see the view of Kampar. And I remembered that that day, when I was admiring the view, that was the first time we properly hugged. I imagined what it would be like to be there at Genting, watching the view with you.

And I have also been dreaming (not literally dreaming when I'm asleep, but dreaming... you get what I mean) of you maybe surprising me in Kampar one weekend. Well, at least that was what I had been hoping for.
Or it need not even be a surprise; just knowing that I'll be seeing you soon is enough to make me happy.
I haven't forgotten what you told me: that coming to and fro from Penang to Kampar or vice versa would cost you at least RM100, which is why I don't expect you to come every weekend.

But seeing you, along with maybe hearing an 'I love you' and knowing that you actually missed me, would have been nice.
I miss you.

Apr. 13th, 2010

Writer's Block: Talk to the animals

What would you do if your pet dog or cat suddenly started to talk to you, but nobody else could hear it? Would you assume you'd gone mad or simply be happy for the company? Would you try to convince your friends and family or would you be satisfied keeping it to yourself?

Well I'd be glad I could talk to them, period. I'd be the next Dr Doolittle! xD And I'd appreciate the company too. ;) I'd tell a few chosen people, but if they don't believe me , then fck it. xD

Dec. 30th, 2009

I Lurk Too Much in LJ.


Because I see the following picture.. And what do I think?

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I need someone to write some Nerdy!Taec/FC smut. >_

Dec. 27th, 2009

Happy Birthday to our #1 Beasty Idol!



Now c'mere and marry me.

Nov. 8th, 2009

Again, the power of Kpop amazes me.

It never fails to do so, actually.
Because today, I made my way up a slight hill-like park for a '1Malaysia Family Day' (to report on the event) in the hot sun, cursing the country for not having 4 seasons (even 3 is sufficient enough; winter a compulsory weather).

I took my time slowly walking up the hill, hearing the annoying broken Malay of the Chinese MCs announcing the arrival of the guest of honour.
I admit, it wasn't until I heard this song that I sped up towards the decent ;anding in which the event was held.
Forgive the quality, it was very noisy, although I even removed most of the noise already.

Sorry Sorry.wav -

Once again, the shuper power of our boys is contagiously infecting the world. *Grin*

Sep. 29th, 2009

The Girl Who Silenced The World for 5 Minutes

I'll be honest, I cried.

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